36 weeks

as of Sunday, I am FINALLY  full term... therefore able to breathe just a tiny bit... figuratively, of course. ha! this week has been tough... the toughest yet.

i'm exhausted. literally drained. i know a lot of it has to do with this crazy Houston heat, and the major loss of appetite, but i can honestly say, all i want to do is sleep, and then sleep some more.  i feel like a big fat grizzly bear confused by the season.  i don't feel up to doing anything.  anything. 

i've been feeling lots of pressure down below, however my last doctor's appointment on Wednesday revealed that i am zero percent dilated and have not thinned.  although, anxious for her to come, that was sort of a relief, simply because we still have a few things to get things done around the house.  nothing crazy major, but we would like to be able to sit and relax and fully enjoy our time with her once she gets here without worrying about walking around boxes, or the house not being clean, or the clothes not being washed.  we still have to organize Aislynn's room, and then clear out the clutter in ours to make room for the cradle and various other odds and in's. other than the clothes being washed and done, everything else is being left to finish tomorrow, after breakfast and a movie for the hubby, which i really hope i am up for.  we're super late and all that jazz, but The Avengers is on the itinerary. =P

all of her clothes/blankets/bibs and so forth have been washed, hung up, folded, and her bag is fully packed.  Aislynn's bag is packed, and mine is packed minus the few "last minute" emergency items such as my make-up and possibly my shampoo (because i know the hospital doesn't have shampoo made specifically for bleached hair, and those little travel sized bottles last me literally 2 washes because i have so much hair).  i'm REALLY hoping to do a hospital bag post, because although i searched high and low for the "perfect" list, there were still quite a few things i thought could have been added.  i also made a "daddy list" as well. so, hoping to share that with you guys, this upcoming week.

i think partly to being so drained, i'm probably more sad than anything.  i've been pregnant for what seems like forever, and if she decides to wait, on Monday, exactly 2 weeks from then, we will see her beautiful little face.  its so surreal, and we are beyond excited, however, there is that sense of, "i will never be THIS close to her ever again", and that breaks my heart a little.  we've had such an amazing experience together, and we've bonded the most we'll ever bond.  then, i think of Aislynn, and much and how fast she has grown, and i can't wait to experience the same with Bella.  i can't wait for Aislynn to experience the "big sister" role.  and i can't wait for Jr to experience the overload of hormones. ha!

its gonna be epic.

36 Weeks:

no picture.
i am horrible, i know.

faith & love,
casey