i know i possibly can't be the only mother who has thought these very thoughts, but i can't help but wonder.
aislynn and i have been hanging out since the day she was born.
pretty much every.single.day.
we have little inside jokes, and quirkiness that can only be shared between the two of us.
aside from her 15 yr old attitude and her lack of filtering her words (ha!), she is such a blessing.
this child....
she is sweet and kind.
she's selfless and loves everyone... always reminding herself and others that Jesus loves them, and made the toy they are playing with (we tell her Santa and Jesus are very close friends)
she neverrrr colored on the walls when she was small (except once. promise, i'm not lying)
she's never spilled any drinks on the floor... we've always left everyone home with nice and clean carpets.
she's thoughtful.
she makes her bed in the morning and cleans her room, everyday.
she says, "please, thank you, and excuse me"
i could go on and on...
i always get compliments on what a little lady she is.
(sometimes, i wonder if they're referring to my child or the kid behind me. ha!)
i guess i'm a little biased because she is mine after all, but i've never treated her like a baby...
she's always been so grown up....
even the way her mind works... it amazes me, and amazes others.
but, i can't help but wonder...
what if Bella isn't like this?
what if she colors alllll over the house, and throws food at me and on the floor?
what if she pushes and shoves other children and/or calls them names?
what if she terrorizes our pets?
i know when Bella comes, its not just going to be Aislynn and I anymore...
we're no longer going to be the tag-team duo we are now.
we won't be able to sing crazy loud in the car to OUR song, or will we?
so many questions...
has anybody else ever felt the same?
would LOVE to hear your thoughts and experiences!
Faith & Love,
Casey
1 comment:
Oyi. Ok, well aside from the fact that Cami is all girl and Santi is all boy. they are still totally opposite and alike, all at once. Camila is sweet and gentle and Santi is well all boy...sometimes mean and harsh. Then they tag team and are both mean and harsh, and days they are both so sweet and gentle. So, while your girls may end up being totally different they will in some way be alike and I pray that like with my Sister they will always be best-friends. And no worries..I have these thoughts about baby number 3, if and when it happens..how will he/she blend into this crazy little family. As children of God we all have our special own little places in this world, in people hearts and with our almighty Father! Your thoughts are totally valid and soon enough, you will know! :D
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