Tonight...

I sit and can't sleep.  I have 21% left on my comp battery, and 101% of life to type out...

Where to start?
Well, let's state the obvious, I'm a HORRIBLE blogger.  Maybe even BEYOND horrible.
yeah, okay... there I said it. =]

So, I've been feeling even more horrible than the horrible of my non-consistant blogging.  Like, deathly horrible.  Promise, I'm not being over dramatic, but ohemgee.  I've never felt so bad in my entire life.  Laying on the couch everyday for 4 weeks straight plus the worst type of nausea imaginable.  No no no no no... I'm a full time stay at home mom and business owner... my life was literally flashing before my eyes.  I understand it happens during every pregnancy, but this type of nausea... no.... its unbearable, and NOBODY should have to endure it "because making a baby takes a lot out of you".  Yeah, it does take a lot of you, but your LIFE?  No.  Plus, I'd rather my preggo behind be happy, up, active, and eating healthy, than suffering the rest of my 1st trimester, if I'm lucky it doesn't carry over into the 2nd or 3rd.  Muscular atrophy.... yeah, I saw that in my very near future had I not figured out what in the world was making me so sick.  I kid you not, I got up off the couch to pee, and feed my child, and THAT WAS IT.  I couldn't do anymore, no matter how hard I tried.  I love my baby Cupcake, but I need to LIVE.  Sooo, as of right now, I'm just waiting on the doctor to give me a call back regarding an alternative to these specific prenatal vitamins. Just imagine the stomach flu times a gazillion!  I can function with a stomach flu... did it when A was a tinyyy baby and Jr worked a thousand hours a week.  I'm fully capable of sucking it up, and moving on... mind over matter is how I see just about everything (call me insensitive, and not to toot my own, but I trained with US Marines every single day for over a year... never went on to become one, but that experience still lives deeeeeeep down in my heart and mind. "Pain is weakness leaving the body." Life is a mental game, and so on), but anywho... THIS... nah-uh.  I will not die to my family when there are alternatives just to save my pride.  Call me a horrible mother, nope... I don't care.  Your way isn't necessarily the ONLY way. Just sayin'. {<<<--------- Preggo hormones talking.}

ps. I'm already 2+ months!  Once, I get into my 2nd Trimester, I hope to take weekly photographs of myself.  We'll see how that goes! ha!  I tried to do a daily "Thankful" on my photo blog, and after Day 14, I feel like a total failure, because it looks like that's all the days I can count up to in the month of November.  Truth is, my camera was the least of my worries... I just wanted to lay on the couch and drown in my preggo sorrows. womp womp.


Work is coming along... Tonight, I stayed up and inspired... myself.  Its been a while since that last happened, and I think I'm finally ready to take the leap of faith with my business.  I want to photograph exactly how I envision my work... not just because people will "typically" like it, but because it stands out and becomes dare I say it, "ART".  I want to get out of the "norm" and jump into my "photographic dreams".  Truth be told though, I'm absolutely TERRIFIED.  The work I love... I haven't seen much in Texas... and quite frankly that freaks me out.... we're more of a traditional state with traditional values, but my work... I can honestly say, its not much traditional.  However, I feel like I need to clean out my website of all the wonderful work that made me smile, yet wasn't my vision.  Its going to hurt... really.really.bad.  But I know God is in control, and if He wants my business to boom or to boom in the hearts of only a few, I am blessed and grateful regardless.  Just asking for prayer... for me to have the guts to take that leap of faith, and for God's grace to shine in and throughout my entire business... I give it to Him.... Fully, this time.  {January 2012... here I come.}


Hmm... Thanksgiving was wonderful! I enjoyed spending time with my in-laws!  They're always great company!  The turkey... I could have puked on, it made me so sick to even think about... still does. BLAH!  BUT, it was a wonderful day!  Black Friday wasn't too shabby either!

Hope you all had an amazing holiday as well... minus the my personal turkey experience. ahem.
Gobble Gobble!

ps.  Meet Cupcake, who is already 5 days bigger than he/she should be! ha!

Love y'all!


Faith, Love, and Everything Going On NOW,
Casey

Week 6 and a Grain of Rice.

This week, I am feeling MUCH better.  Still have a bit of nose drainage, but other than that, the cold went out the door.  However, I'm still very much exhausted, and I know I'm making a baby, but I feel like making a baby has stopped me dead in my tracks to where I am unable to go on about my day as I typically would, and I'm still feeling guilty about not getting things done around the house daily.  Granted, I feel better, I'm just not 100%, and heck, I might not get there until after my 1st trimester, which is when I hear the tiredness usually dissipates.  Geez. I sure hope so.

The girls are ACHING.  Either its because I'm 2 cup sizes bigger than while preggo with Miss A, or this pregnancy is entirely different than my first.  Either way, its time for some new bras.

Hmmm... I haven't gained any weight, and I only plan (and strive) to gain 15-20lbs throughout my entire pregnancy.  However, my tummy looks like baby is already umm 3 months along or so.  Maybe, I'm over exaggerating, or maybe... just maybe, I am seeing truth.  After a summer of wearing workout clothes (thanks to my feet surgery), I went out this past weekend in search of some jeans.  I grabbed the biggest pair I thought my preggo butt would fit into, and thankfully, my sweet hubby, grabbed my "normal" size just in case, because I came out of the fitting room with a smile on my face; I still wear the same size!  ::insert big sigh of relief::

Not sure what it is, and I hear every pregnancy is different, but this one is on the other side of the spectrum.  The nausea, the exhaustion, the tender gals, and an extremely bloated tummy... all of which, I didn't have with Miss A.  Guess there's a first time for everything, eh?  =/  Jr is scaring me with his non-fleeting thoughts of TWINS.  Yikes! I know...  He says for some reason, he feels it in his knower.  Hmm... yeah... waiting on my 1st ultrasound. ha!

(I promise, I'll get a pic of me up here, soon.  Feeling so boo boo isn't having me in a picture mood.)

Today, I am 6 weeks and 5 days!

How far along? 6 weeks and 5 days.
Maternity clothes? No.

Stretch marks? No.

Sleep: That's ALL I want to do. =/

Best moment this week: Realizing I'm half way through my 1st Trimester. =]

Miss Anything? An appetite.

Movement: None yet.

Food cravings: All I want is fruit and cold cereal.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Pretty much everything.
Have you started to show yet:  I haven't gained any weight, but my belly sure does look preggo.

Gender: Not sure... the twins possibility is still in the air. haha
Labor Signs: Um no. ha
Belly Button in or out? In, and it better stay that way. =P
Wedding rings on or off? On... for now.
Happy or Moody most of the time:  I feel stressed because I feel lazy.  I feel lazy, because I'm so dang tired.

Looking forward to:  My first ultrasound!

Size of Baby:  Grain of rice. =]

Faith, Love, & Cupcake, 

Casey

Week 5 and a Sesame Seed.

Geez. 

This week has been something else.

Preggo.
Sick.
And Preggo.

It hasn't been the start of the pregnancy that I envisioned, but it is what it is, and I am just grateful I am able to stay home to rest and recover.  However, it hasn't been as easy as it sounds.  I'm used to getting up early and getting my day started, and keeping it going with everything under the sun to-do.  I'm used to having dinner cooked and ready for my husband when he gets home.

This past week has been a much different story.

The tv has been on longer this week than it has the entire YEAR.
My bed hasn't been made; not once.
The clothes are piling up along with the dishes.
I haven't gotten dressed and left the house, besides sitting on the door step watching my dogs prance outside in our backyard, enjoying the much needed cooler weather. 
I can't enjoy food. 
I can't kiss my hubby or Miss A.
My dogs feel neglected.
My nose is chapped.
My throat is sore.
I've had to cancel my photo sessions, and meet-ups with good friends. =/

ahi.

I'm sooo ready to feel BETTER!  I'm beginning to feel LAZY, and GUILTY for all that I haven't done this week, and for all that I am now, behind on.  With Jr working much over time this week, its just been me and Aislynn, and she has been THE sweetest helper.  Blessed!

2 nights ago, she also lost her VERY first tooth!  Stay tuned for that post, tomorrow! =D

Today, I am 5 weeks and 6 days!

How far along? 5 weeks and 6 days.
Maternity clothes? No.

Stretch marks? Besides the ones I already have from the 1st go round, nope, nothing... YET.

Sleep: Huh?? What's that??

Best moment this week: Aislynn losing her very first tooth!

Miss Anything? An appetite.

Movement: None yet.

Food cravings: Not this week.

Anything making you queasy or sick: The taste of phlegm with this cold.
Have you started to show yet:  Does being bloated count??

Gender: ? Jr and his co-workers think we're having twins! ha!
Labor Signs: Um no. ha
Belly Button in or out? In, and it better stay that way. =P
Wedding rings on or off? On... for now.
Happy or Moody most of the time:  Happy, other than being sick and feeling boo boo.

Looking forward to:  My first ultrasound this month on the 21st! WEEHOO!

Size of Baby:  Sesame Seed

Faith, Love, and Cupcake! 

Casey